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He looked at my nose and there's something going on with one of the nostrils. (That nostril hurt--Who knows?) I see the surgeon Wednesday. Day 3 - Hi Joseph. I went to my mom's house and was actually able to take a short nap. Never thought of talking to my nose to get it to heal but I like that idea. And actually it makes sense. When I was pregnant with my daughter it was quite serious--high risk. I talked to her all the time and told her everything would be ok. I even visualized that she was fine. Several time a day I would visualize waterfalls. They are beautiful and calming. It really helped. Perhaps that is in order now. Thank you for your suggestions. I am counting on the Bible reading to really calm me. Joan Day 4 - I slept last night w/o the aid of medication. That was a relief! I woke up and still was a little shocked at who I saw. I don't look deformed just different. There are some areas that I am not too happy about--and I will address those tomorrow. (No follow-up surgeries for at least 6 months--does more damage than good if performed too soon. I don't have the cash any way---so I am trying to accept this--at least for now.) Day 6 - Going to the appt. w/the surgeon. Say a pray for me, please. Thanks--Joan Day 7 - Thanks Joseph. He said I still have a lot of swelling. He'll see me next month and we'll go from there. (Surgery, apparently, is not the answer to unhappiness. Obviously.) Thanks for your support. I'll write tonight. Joan Day 8 - Dear Joseph: I spoke with my surgeon. He won't fix the bottom part of the nose--at least not right now. Of course, it takes 6 months to heal. He said we would discuss where to go with this next meeting time--Sept. 14. I spoke with a counselor at that 1-800 number and he gave some sound advice. When I get overwhelmed I need to find a quiet place, sit, take deep breathes, and pray. I just feel so alone. My surgeon gave me 2 names of counselors that may be able to help. One is in my network--since money is an issue. I am going call him this morning at 10:00. (His office is supposed to be opened until 4:30 but when I called yesterday at 4:12 no one answered.) Day 9 - Joseph, I have made so many mistakes. If I did not have two small children I would go. Take care---Janice Day 12 - Hi Joseph. I am trying to find the silver lining in all of this. And I think I have figured it out. When I started to decline--get blue--I took the kids to the park--a lot! Everyday. (I cut out shopping altogether.) My daughter has changed her mind about careers. She doesn't want to model; she wants to be a park ranger or naturalist. (I am so glad she has changed her tune. I worried about the superficial aspect of modeling. Having done it myself--it is ok. However, I didn't go to NY as advised so I didn't get caught up into it. I had met some local creeps that tried to persuade me to have sex with them. No way! But people pressure you all the time in the business. Their interest is not in your best interest. So, I am glad she has abandoned that "dream.") Day 13 - Then, my mother-in-law and I started to speak more. She will go with me when I have follow-up surgery (bone not healing right) and another female surgery. We are starting to become close. (My sister-in-law and I are getting along better, too. ) I guess all things have a purpose--if you look hard enough. God Bless--Joan Day 15 - Called for a second opinion since I am not healing. The swelling is intense and the pain is prolonged. So, I spoke to someone who said in 2 weeks if the pain and swelling are present, I'll possibly need a sinus specialist. So, it isn't just need for prayer. It is also need for further assistance from the medical community---which, of course, God controls. I have faith that God will get to the bottom of this soon. Hope all is well with you---J. Day 17 - Thought you would would agree ----- I do. I will confide in you the various things which have happened to me recently. I went back to work to pull it together--not knowing if I would be ready to return. As I started to work I felt better. Then I bumped into various people and spoke to them. (They didn't really notice my nose that much. Some commented that it was swollen.). A friend asked me out to lunch which lead to a good conversation about life and God. (We have known each other for years and never discussed God before---I asked her "What do you do when you are in despair?" She said "Draw closer to God.") So we continued to talk about God and the various ways the devil tries to ruin good people. Amazing. Then, I finally went and got my hair cut. (Hadn't had a cut since April!) MY hair stylist is a friend, too. She looked at my nose and said "No way should that still be swollen. You need a second opinion.' She went on to explain about some botched up surgery she had on her chin. Terrible. (And I know the pain she is referring to---) I wish she had told me about this PRIOR to my decision. But such is life. So, I called and spoke with another surgeon's nurse. She said give it a few more weeks and then her doctor will see me and probably refer me to a sinus person. (The swelling and pain are something else.) Day 18 - I understand that the bones in your nose are like egg shells--very fragile. So they wait to do more work. It is my true belief that the bone isn't healing right. (I can feel it.) Day 19 - Well, do not hesitate to have any of the people you counsel talk to me if they are considering such a surgery. They need to know the risks and how it isn't always worth it. Take care---Joan Day 20 - Thanks. Be sure to underscore that what God created, vain man should not touch--least he/she should have to have follow-up surgery. (Now, it is medical instead of cosmetic....) I will e-mail them directly..if you wish. Once they hear about the pain and excessive swelling it sometimes results in...they'll think twice. (I just don't want anyone else to make this foolish mistake. It may have compromised my health for later.) J.
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